"You Shall Above All Things Be Glad And Young…"

When I was in my school days, I carried around my father’s old 35 mm camera that I didn’t know how to work properly. My photos, like my complexion, lacked perfection, but that camera was my constant companion in trips all over the state of Utah. Sometimes alone, sometimes with others (or a succession of different people), I visited a few places time and time again during the course of my seven years in Utah. These favorite haunts still appear in my dreams in the muted colors reflected in my poor photography skills. I don’t know why I don’t see the colors of Utah more vibrantly in my dreams. Perhaps my recollections have faded and the only recollections that I have of these places are the ones that I can observe when I have occasion to look at my old photographs.

This is how I see my favorite old haunts:

Lower Calf Creek Falls in the Escalante Grand Staircase National Monument:

Provo River and Provo Canyon in Early Autumn:

Little Wildhorse Canyon in the San Rafael Swell:

Mt. Timpanogos in Early Spring:

Kolob Canyon in Zion National Park:
The Needles in Canyonlands National Park:
Because it has been many years since I have visited these places that brought me so much happiness and moments of enlightenment, in my dreams I still have that earnestness of youth when I see them; the kind of earnestness I keep hoping will pop back into my head because it reminds me of being at peace with a moment. I see myself, not seeing the muted faded colors of my pictures, but as if I am viewing the shocking brightness of reds, blues and greens. I see the version of myself who sees the vibrancy, aware that in that one moment, the world seems right and good. In my head that feeling looks like this:

Out of focus, imperfect, but content.

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